i am depressed

i am not pretty, i am short, i have small boobs, i am insecure, i have depression, i think about dieing at least 3 times a week, i have trust issuse, please just stay.

i just wanna fall asleep next to you, i love you soo much.
i wish i had confidance, i wish i was pretty like other girls, i wish tan, i wish i bad boobs.
i dont know how to make you love me again, all i wanna do is die, cut cut cut and die.
maybe if i die you will start caring again.
talk to me please :(